This hit me the worst. Ever. I've never felt this way before. I ask God why He allowed me to make stupid decisions. I thought it could be a test. We've failed.

If its not meant to be, just let me die please. God. Let me just sleep & die. Spare me some sympathy & let me go.. So I shall pray for that every single prayer.

I love my dad, mum, sis, bro, the kids.
I love u.
I will miss sharon, jer, lu..
Eunice, huiping, minjeong, meekwan