~reflections on life~

yday received some shocking news, which made me reflect on life a little..

bro: *1 of his fren's name* just passed away.
sf : HUH? dun bluff lah..
bro: really! *another guy's name* called me this mornin to tell me, he died in his sleep, heart attack.
sf : omg.. *tears welled up*

a kid who's so young, just hit his 21, without any warning, could just die like that. i really couldn't imagine that happenin to me. despite not knowing this boy personally, i've heard a few stories about him from my bro, sounded qt a cheerful & happy boy, alwiz joking & bringing laughter to his frens.. i can't imagine not hearin abt him anymore.

some discussion with my bro:
-> is it better to die suddenly without any prior suffering or to enjoy life then just go?

i dunno, going without any pain sounds better for a scaredy person like me, imagine someone scared of injections.. but it doesn't seem fair to loved ones that they don't get the chance to say their last goodbyes. that leads us to the thing about living life to the fullest, each & every day. to treasure loved ones, before it is too late.

if i am know that i'm gonna die tmr, i will tell every of my loved ones that i love them. why do we alwiz withhold our true feelings? sometimes i tink i may enjoy it more if i was born a westerner, more open with feelings.. i haven told my parents that i love them recently, or hugged them at all. it just seems so strange right, doin that out of the blue.

sigh.. dunno what's his religion but i hope his soul is at peace now. glad that he left peacefully..