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juz had a freakin quarrel wif bro over the computer...cos dad wanted to bring the comp for upgradin tmr...so bro wanted to backup some of his dumb anime videos and songs and wadeva shit he has inside the blardy comp...den our wall jack has 3 lines plugged in...1 to house comp, 1 to the fone via microfilter and last 1 to my lappy...so i was connected to internet and dlin matlab6 from sweelye...den bro was bz wif exams...finally todae he decided to do a backup...

here's prolly wad u dunno...when i am connected and the house comp is turned on i will kena d/cc unless the fone line to house comp is not connected to wall jack...guess u dun understand too...nvm so he wanted to turn on the comp of cos...den i tod him not to else i wud get d/cc...he tod mi to receive the file after he turns on the comp...den of cos i refused...cos i was almost half done...dowana waste the time dlin again...not fair to sl also...

so he made a huge fuss over it...over nothin...i was dlin stuff related to work and he doesn gif a damn abt it at all...threatened to d/cc mi even~!!! so damn pissed and upset & fustrated...dunno wadz wrong wif mi...haiz...feelin so emotional these days...

juz last nite when i attempted to sleep earlier...at 2am...i cud not get to sleep at all...was feelin sooo depressed and hopeless abt life...and love...guess partly due to hearin abt my fren's break up...it was as sad as wad happened to mi lyke last yr??? haiz...summore was listenin to ocean ou de yang's cd...kinda filled wif sad songs...haiz...eyes not dry anymore i cud wear my contacts to sleep!!! haha...

cud not get to sleep so i got up, turned on my comp again...and plaed gunbound~ haha...not bad...den finally managed to sleep at 6.30am??? cos i lost track of time...haha was shocked cos was supposed to wake up at 8am to go sentosa at 10am...for oweek outing...haiz...din qt make it when i woke up at 2+pm...

-bin listenin to xmas songs- cos weather so reminds mi of winter time...how i miss korea...sometimes when it's sooo cold i will juz close my eyes and orb myself back to korea haha...btw "orb" is a witch-y term...kinda lyke teleport...haha